In such a busy world, sometimes it’s hard to find a moment to yourself. Even when we do, we’re trained to have our phones with us – logged in to social media accounts, checking email, responding to group texts. Many of us, I think, have become afraid of true silence.
It’s intimidating – and I didn’t realize how prone to avoiding it I am until recently. I’ve tried meditating before, but always with music. When I read, I am either in a noisy setting, or I add music. If I’m around the house cleaning, cooking – whatever – I stream a show or have Alexa play me music. I’m rarely in true silence.
We could try to unpack why that might be – but for now, I’ll go along with placing the blame primarily on habit. It’s become the norm.
Have you ever read “The Invitation” by Oriah Mountain Dreamer? It’s been one of my all time favorites since I was in high school. In thinking about all this noise I constantly surround myself with, I was reminded of a few lines from the poem:
“I want to know if you can sit with pain, mine or your own, without moving to hide it, or fade it, or fix it.
I want to know if you can be with joy, mine or your own; if you can dance with wildness and let the ecstasy fill you to the tips of your fingers and toes without cautioning us to be careful, be realistic, remember the limitations of being human.”
Ultimately, I want to know if I can sit with silence. If I can be still. If I can do little more than just breathe. So I’ve decided to approach meditation again.
You probably have heard about all the benefits – mental and physical (sign me up for all of these).
Meditation is supposed to make you more present in your life (which I’d like to be) and destress you (which I need desperately).
Morning meditation is supposed to set the tone for your day (perfect) and wake you up (the struggle) as well as give you energy without chugging caffeine (I have my doubts about this).
Some people use a mantra or a movement to meditate. Since I think literally sitting still in silence will be impossible for me to begin with, I’m going to start my meditation practice through yoga.
As usual, I’ve explored Google a bit. I’m going to try this yoga practice – well, as best I can. I’m not going to keep my phone with me, but I’ll ask Alexa to set a 15 minute alarm for me. I’m not going to listen to music, or play a video. I’m just going to move through the positions, and my breath, and see if I can sit with the silence.
I’ll let you know how it goes.